FINALIST FOR THE 2022 LAMBDA LITERARY AWARD FOR LESBIAN MEMOIR

'A muscular, canny memoir . . . I couldn't put it down. What a fucking gorgeous book' CARMEN MARIA MACHADO
'Entertaining' New York Times
'Absolutely not to be missed' Vogue
'A gripping story' Esquire

Chris Belcher appeared destined for a life of conventional femininity after she took first place in an infant beauty contest - a minor glory that followed her around her small, working-class town in rural West Virginia. But when she came out as queer, the conservative community that had once celebrated its prettiest baby turned on her.

A decade later, living in Los Angeles and trying to stay afloat during a PhD program, Belcher plunges into a double life as both student and sex worker, branding herself as L.A.'s Renowned Lesbian Dominatrix. As she moves between the embodied world of the pro-domme and the abstract realm of academia, she discovers how lessons from the classroom can apply to the dungeon and vice versa.

In this searingly funny and perceptive memoir, we see through eyes of a dominatrix-turned-academic how power, shame and desire can be explored and subverted.